holding on to a piece of cloth

This post has been on hold for months, I've been wanting to explain, but then I decided, meh, I have nothing to lose.. I don't owe anyone any explanation. Not now.
 The thought of it has been lingering for too long in my mind, and I guess I was torturing myself by being someone I can't afford to be so I just...I was just doing the right thing.
I always thought this way wld give me time to find myself back to Him and have been hoping this change would give me a whole new perspective in life. Pray for me.


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