skeptical

Recently things have been quite confusing for me, a good friend became a frenemy for some reason and I can't stop pretending that things are alright when it's not for me. I keep acting like things are alright between us when everyone else knew she was using me for her own benefit and I talk smack behind her back (lol I ain't good too yknow). But well, dumb-dumb me didn't realise it till she finally crosses the line.
I mean, it's okay if you want to use some of my stuff but please don't take it for granted? I mean my clothes are quite meaningful to me -- it might be cheaper for you who knows -- and I don't have many in my closet unlike Y-O-U so please, respect me and my belongings. Shit, I don't wanna start.
But DON'T YOUR MOTHER TAUGHT YOU MANNERS?

On a side note, I don't know why I find it hard to be true to my own feelings. I'm a mess. I've always been a difficult person with the emotions of a whirlwind. I at times can't comprehend my own personality. So what can I do for me?


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holding on to a piece of cloth

This post has been on hold for months, I've been wanting to explain, but then I decided, meh, I have nothing to lose.. I don't owe anyone any explanation. Not now.
 The thought of it has been lingering for too long in my mind, and I guess I was torturing myself by being someone I can't afford to be so I just...I was just doing the right thing.
I always thought this way wld give me time to find myself back to Him and have been hoping this change would give me a whole new perspective in life. Pray for me.


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