Au revoir 2015!

2015 was full of adrenaline. It gives me depression, anxieties and closures. But 2015 was also wonderful. I was taught self-healing and self-love. I learnt that not everything we love should be possesed and could be protected or is permanent. I learnt to stood up for myself, to never be selfish and too nice. I met a wonderful guy, amazing friends and went to great places. My hedgehog gave birth twice and now i have 8 in hand, that's crazy!
I learnt about responsibilities and i grew up gradually by time. This year, i must say, i did everything i ever wanted to. I also learnt a new language and mastered it for a few months lol and also tried new foods i never imagined i would eat!
Life is wonderful. Be it 2015, 2005 or 2000.
Now bring it on 2016!

Insomnia

It's 2 freakin a.m. and i couldn't even close my eyes for five minutes. I need to go to the library tomorrow and fetch everyone but I couldn't sleep. Urgh why does this have to happen every time it's holiday? Okay fine it's not holiday but it's almost the same.

Right now All that is in my mind is about securities. I'm insecure with almost everything, I keep pushing myself over the limit ,keep bein too hard on myself but in the end I get nothing. Why can't I be enough?


...even for myself?

Dreams, dreams, dreams

Hello, it literally took me years to update a post. i keep on saving drafts and in the end forgot to publish, then when i re read them, meh they sound irrelevant. but right now, i swear I'm going to finish a post.

so 2015 is going to end in a few days and i am already in my dream university, UTM, to be precise, MJIIT which means Malaysia Japan International Institute of Technology pursuing Bachelor of Mechanical Precision Engineering. no big deal, the lecturers, friends and subjects are da bomb?! so I'm enjoying things here especially the city haha I've been exploring KL a lot these days. With addition, semester 1 is coming to and end and I'm stoked to learn Japanese language, heh as if my mandarin are any better.

Daddy suggested me to drive to college but first years aren't allowed to drive..so I have to ask one of my seniors to help me cover my evil plan, well, if they agrees.

My seven angels are studying all around malaysia, but we still have time to see each other. Anne and B are now covered and they look radiant as heck(jealous). My boyfriend, we're about to reach our first Anniversary and I'm still contemplating either to get him presents or buy him dinner and where?what?budget? /:

In sya Allah, everything is going to be well, I must admit I'm still battling trying to be a better muslimah but I'm grateful with all his rezki despite the heavy obstacles I encountered.

So till we meet again(??)

Love,
Nadhirah